vacation

Well hey, the report card is here! And its like the alphabet

I dont know how the hell i could've gotten an alphabet, and its crazy in the house now!

D and an E is like a falling grade..

Well I cant blame pak sapto, its good enough his giving me a D. In his classes i deserve an F

but pak emir, seriously that dude doesnt even come in! Like what up with that and blaming me not coming into his classes..

That guy NEEDS a reality check!

Well one of my teachers got married last sunday,

CONGRATULATIONS PAK PRAS :D

hope you enjoy the first day and the beginning of the rest of your life with that person!

best of luck

Well that just means Im a.....

AGIT :D

damn! it feels like just yesterday I was those UTAS and like being all scared to get out of the class.

But I cant wait!

I WONT be mean and start like hitting people, but all I would probably do is make them buy me pulsa!

ahuahuhuahahuha

yes, everyone knows my phone never has credit. So now with 12th grade coming in, wohooooooooo!

Well today would be the first day of my summer outings, and also be the last post for this month.

Moms taking us all out as a fam, I don't know what she thinks she's giving us but hopefully it turns out okay

I hope all of you have a great summer vacation! And enjoy it to the full-ist

As to BRUZEL-BEZANIKA:

YOOOOOO! UDA AGIT YOOOOOOOOOOOO :D

dreadful night

Well I was crying all night, last night

And yes we all know why

Im not saying Im proud it happened, but yaaa well it did

My eyes are soooooooo puffy right now, and this morning my sister had her fashion show

Crazy eyes made me so hard to put on m contacts lenses!

I want to get out of the house, and my big picture iam trying to put out is, I CANT STAND TERLALU DIKENGKENG!

if they keep on doing this the more Im going to get angry and upset

Well we'll see how things go

My trip to china has been canceled ONCE AGAIN :(

I need a break from a family that thinks they know me REALLY WELL..

Why cant they just stop and LEARN ABOUT ME FROM THE BEGINNING!?

Park=a good soothing place

Well I had a pretty good and quite day today

I had breakfast, the best apple pie i can get at 8 in the morning :)

And a park that was very cozy and relaxing

I had a little company for a short time and he made me think about my mistakes and realize that it isn't as easy as that.

He only stayed for a quite while, but his words and reasuring stayed

Namesake is the name of the book that my brother gave me

Its a about a kid that lost his true color or devotion or love to his culture

And how he deals with it

oke, straight down that is soooooo what iam going through!

And the book is going great

Hoping to get out of the house again, CAUSE IAM ABOUT TO KILL MYSELF IF TOMORROW IAM STILL AT HOME :(

I want to swim or jog somewhere so i can take all the bullshit out

Which i know no one would let me, but hey its worth trying

victoria secrets summer collection!

what i want this summer

not feeling too good

I have not been feeling good lately since this morning..

My sickness is coming back and its barbaric!

My mind and body is going loco..

ughhhhhhhhhh!!

I just want to get out and swim or like do something like run or tennis..

Just to break this wholeeeee thing out of my mind..

Well I had this ridiculous fight with my mom today and Im not liking it at all..

I think thats where I got the headache, cause of holding all that feelings in

Well now I cant eat or rest

Im wanting to get out my house but I really want to go to my bro's place ONLY!

Im seriously not taking the report card thing any serious anymore with the fight that i just had from my mama

and I really don't care what kinda of fight she going to pick up

But hopefully that i get to go to china and like get away from her and my family for awhile..

I'd be nice to see vanilla, my chinese BF, again :(

GOD i miss her!

I wish you guys all a good holiday, and lets just hope Im not grounded FOREVER

Stinky week, I smell the coming on KARMA!

Seriously Im in the blues right now..

I've been thinking of soooo many stuff its crazy!

I don't know what to accept right now, either Im getting my karma BAD or Im just having it all inside my head..

Ohhhh, btw I took the kepribadian test with ryan and it went pretty good. not that bad..

Back to topic. And now I don't know what to do in this situation because I put myself or made my self emotionaly attached with the person :/

Thats why I try to NEVER EVER fall in love with someone, because you know that every single guy is capable and WILL END UP breakin your heart up for some other bitch at you know very well your better then..

ughhhhhhhhhh! I don't like thinking, cause that just makes me play by the rules and actually thinking about someone's feelings other then mines!!!!!!

Good morning jakarta :)

So its been really weird lately, these past few days. I felt like I was being exam'd and I am in this little box where everyone can see my little do's and flaws. I dont like the attention Im getting even if i would like to be the eye of everything. And it freaks me the hell out!

I wonder whats going to happen next.

Well all I know right now is hopefully that in my report card their is at least 2 A+ or 1 B.. Need serious need of those A and B's :(

Keep making the usual mistakes, and its insane. And especially when you think its for a good cause but it just ends up as living hell! ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

My insecurity's are very high up these days and Im very great full. I get to see the downside of being the girl that take's nothing but give's everything.. I wonder what my ex would say about this.. hummmmmmmm

congratulations

Michael cera has released a new movie :D

starstruck!

seriously I was just stunned with this one! really lovely and she had it just right

But a congratulations in honor! Cause my favorite lady has just revealed her BABY BUMP.. WIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!

report cards

I just woke up from one of the most worst afternoon sleeps EVER!!!

I mean seriously all this school shit is, FUCKED MAN!

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Well besides that yesterday I was watching 17 again, the one with the Zac Efron in it and Im like wow! your hot.. I always though he was GAY. This would be my favorite piece of him, his a lot more grown up and maturing in his acting skills.

  

He has grown up into something huh?! damn, he was soooooooo irresistible in that movie! cant wait for another :D

Other then that, I went shopping with my black pork today at blok M square and had TONS of fun. They werent half that bad either. The quality was pretty good and the designs are like the one's in mangga dua.. didnt even waste more then 100ribu! shop shop shop :D  

Brunch in SoHo and late movies

So since all of you know I am grounded, I was out with my sisters yesterday and had brunch at SoHo Grand indonesia. It was a cool saturday we had fun and talked a lot. We went around GI and checked out some cool places and wanting some really awesome clothes. But before I put them up, I want to say

HAPPY 17'TH BIRTHDAY BASH AND 17TH BIRTHDAY TO MAYA AND TIKA BULE :D

I wish you guys a forever happy and loving days to come

Well back on track, Im going cooo coooo on Topshop right now! its crazy their bikini is awesome and cost less then ripcurl, not to mention their bags are amazing! I need dad back ASAP

I dont know if its just me but it looked GOOOOOOD on me :(

starstruck!

just classy

loving pastry

Pastry angela and vanessa simmons line

starstruck

really loving them both

Different child, different approach

My parents have 5 children. Thats a lot for a normal married couple of almost 30 years. And Im not implying they don't know how to raise me, no don't get me wrong. I think their the best a parent can get, and besides the fact that they already raised 3 before me.

And I feel kinda sorry, for letting them raise me. I mean I am the most spoiled most ab-noxious greedy, egoistic, self centered daughter anyone can get. But Im glad through all of that I bloomed into someone very liberal and understanding to other peoples feeling :) people say i got it from my dad..

But thats not the issue right now. The issue right now, would probably be how parents always seem to make every single kid the same. 

isn't that like supposed to be a problem? And I wonder how people like B'jork, Amy winehouse could stand out.

I don't know if Im the only child that seems to have a problem but its like Im treated and look to as my brothers and sisters. Look I know I am not the brightest and Im not the best, but wouldn't you guys like to see the other part of me that would make you feel happy and proud? And it feels like shit when you realize you try your best just to know that in the end, its all not worth it.

Maybe cause iam grounded all my supress-anger is all built up and everything around me just seems unfair. But now I seem to realize that silencs is gold. And through all of that fighting is really NOT the answer..

swimwear for this summers outting :D

MUST HAVE!!!!!!!!!

DADS BIRTHDAY SURPRISE :)

DADS LOVELY BIRTHDAY SURPRISE WAS A SUCCESS :D

Iam sorry that i have not been writing too much lately the pass week because of dads birthday surprise and of course my exams and all the fucked up drama! But its been really good lately and I have been putting things in balance and extremely happy of myself and proud of course of what I have done, even if its not something Iam proud of. guess

SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO DO SOMETHING BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO, NOT BECAUSE YOU WANT TO

Besides dads birthday, I had my exams this pass week. And i had put all my time and effort! crazy-crazy little shit and PKN the WHOLE CLASS had to take remedials. ughhhhhhhhhhh.. Other then that, since you all know my promise about changing myself because of all the grounding I have had. I am proud to say i have done some off theeee above :) Challenging myself has never been so fun!

I had gogirl! magazine since like the first time it came out, and iam like CRAZY over it.. maybe cause this time its actually good!

notes to remebere:

1. MUST check agnes's monic's dance course's
2. pay GO before kelas 3
3. make the scrapbook!
4. photoshoot and gogirl! hunt

All right yall's! I gotta bounce :D

KISS KISS BANG BANG!!

UAS!!!!

EXAMS ARE A BITCH!!!!!!

Yes as you can see, IAM STILL GROUNDED!

and I'm sick :(

fuck banget deh, been having a long week and its UAS WEEK! wish me luck guys, cause it gonna be one hell of a week..

well at least i got new JADE jeans and some new flat ZARA shoes! guess grounded sessions aren't half that bad :)

I've been sick and i cant get out of bed, my head hurts and my stomach is really not being friendly with the situation and i have a zillion things running through my mind right now.. UGHHHHHH!! ubeeeeer stressed out! anyone?!

I cant lie, i have been feeling a little bit dissapointed with someone I thought  knew well.. guess I was wrong. I quite understood and I guess went through what you so called friendship and i guess my sister was right, their is no such thing as a TRUE friendship. Had enough of my fair share for the month, I just wanna get the exams done and get school over with!

REALISING THAT THEIR IS NO ONE ELSE THERE BUT YOU.

Is probably something I learned the hard way, but hey!

If you dont go through it, you'll never know.

all right, enough of as it is..

SKIT SKIT BANG BANG HOMZIIIIEEEE!