one astonishing week

Its been a nice and calm week lately. I haven't been oh so crazy but i've had my fair share of fun. I hope you guys have been having that too :)

One thing i realized though, is that through anything or everything, there is always an end. or at LEAST a problem. In this case if you put too/so much effort or passion or feeling everything will just end up a big mess. And with this guy, not my so-called boyfriend right now, really showed me how impossibly destructive, heartless a boy can get. I wont call him a man, cause i basically think he isn't. When you put all of that out for that one thing you dream or of you aim for, you in the end get it one way or another. But at the end of that journey there is always 2 endings, either your happy that you got it or your depressed and you got it. And at this point in my journey, im just done. Im tired of knowing at the end of the road that ties me and him up, something is just always there. something dangling, something untrustworthy. And this also shows that men can't also be trusted. Have you ever had a feeling that something is up, something strange is up but you have no evidence to back it up, but that feelings so strong that you know your right? Exactly how I feel right now. No matter what excuse that person is going to give to me, B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T.

Its not the effort I give to the relationship that matters, its all the lies you got yourself caught up that you don't realize the person or thing you love is hurt.

A lot of things has been on my mind, but then again maybe its cause Im starting school soon. But I also need to keep in mind that I need to focus. I gotta keep my eye on the price. And its really astonishing that I have to deal with all these crappy feelings NOW when im about to head back to school. I was hoping for a at least a peaceful welcome-back sign, but all that anyones giving me is an alert-you-shall-die sign. Great. Another shitiiiiieeee week in the day of a life of dantha. Great.

J-town

Im writing in black cause I don't know what color im feeling right now

Im back from detoxing myself with my family members, on my way back to jakarta I took a different way. I took the train and the bus and it showed how much people in jakara are just big assholes who complain and not realizing it WAS THEIR decision.

I went home with my older cousin yang cuma beda ber2apa bulan with me and im extremely shocked on how grown and mature he has gotten

I should spend time more with my family

Lebaran showed me how much we all gotten so apart at times, its devastating

I have been enjoying bandung to the fullest lately, maybe its cause i FINALLY WENT TO THE STORE HAPPY GO LUCKY :D

good stuff there, should've gotten their sweater.

how was everyones lebaran? best wishes from me :)

Im about to have a really LOONG AND EXHAUSTING WEEK

today I have to be at places see people talk to people, shit at people.

And im veeeeery tired already. Hoping at the end of the week I can get a quick getaway before heading back to school

speaking of school, I cant wait to see everyone :)

anywhooo I leavt J-town for only a couple of days almost a week and i found a trend alert :D

THIS IS JUST MAGNIFICENT!!! My fav this week

and not to forget my oh so hot and oh so loving..

wish come true

Wishes DO come true!!!!

finally I get lounge into freedom of the swimming pool and nice calm apartments :D

It was the first time I went with the bus but it wasn't half as bad as I thought it would be

here are so photos..

man was I in peace and relaxation! ready for tomorrow yalls :D

cha china bada bing bing!

In need of self-relaxation

Yesterday made me realize how much one person aka my mba does for a day, and comes to appreciate what she does in this. nontheless, MBA COME BACK HOME :'(

Me and mom spent the day yesterday doing the house chorus, it was good exercise but the pain in my hand and the cape-ness in my body was unbearable.

AND NOW I HAVE TO CLEAN MY HAMSTERS :(

seriously if this month is all about being at home and getting tired INSIDE the house, then its meaning less. ughhhhh!! tireeeeeeeeeeed..

RAMDAHAN :)

Its been a hell of a while since my last post that stirred some mess up, but no matter. Its VA-CA, the only thing that can wash away my disappointments. Lately I have been hectic and crazy over exams which eventually, ALHAMDULLILAH remednya SO FAR cuma ada 2. dan agama pas2 an 70, which is kinda lame.

Well today im probably heading to abang's apartment to have buka puasa with his clients and of course ka edu, ka didi, and ka christina. But im actually considering just going there for the free food and some pool time. I have been missing some of those alone times and is die-ing for one. This year's rahmadan month, I have been going out sooo much that I forgot to stay home with family and taking care of the house. Hopefully a day or two before I mudik tanggal 17 Ill be able to help mama with the house. BTW mba rini, MY LOVELY AND KNOWS HOW TO SPEAK ENGLISH MBA MUDIK :(( AND I MISS HER LIKE CRAZY!!!

Its unbelievable what 3rd grade high school could do to your last year in high school. Im slowly watching everything I have fade away, better yet. Going through a stage of metamorphosis. And going through a 3rd one doesn't make it any easier. I wish this could go faster and with time grow into a beautiful and loving experience

By the way bloggers, have you noticed that im very much NOT SINGLE ???

ehahahaha, my stupid BF asked me out on the 9th. How cliche, ey :D

I hope when her reads this he'll be at home and smiling to himself

something to cheer everyone up, me and nyla took some photos a couple of days ago. bad park, cool photos

ching ching, bada-bing bing!