Saturday, January 23, 2010

4 am

Its actually 43 past 4, but all is good
I dont know why im awake but I cant go back to sleep and that's for sure

How is everyone doing?
Which I think you will be reading this around afternoon-ish, am I right?

Exams have taking over my head.
And its getting to my weekends too!
The weirdest thing is that im not studying that hard for the exam
I MEAN IM GIVING MY ALL
but UAN is deff not my priority right now..



ME AND ANGIE BAIKAN LHOOOOOOO :D

complete happiness is filling me right now, hahahhahaha
Im back with the dumb-shit that makes me laugh all day!
pretty good to be back

Im not up for wild stuff right now, but all me angie do to relieve stress, is to just SHOP!
And I need to stop that right now -.-

Friday, January 8, 2010

Firefly

Karma.
UGH.
I hate this subject of hindu believes
But what goes around comes around
I feel really bad and guilty for the stupidity I have piled on someone
I just should've given my insecurities a break, And I pushed it
Im not regretting anything I did
Im just saying that instead of giving it my best effort to make it work I made it a deision that me and him are just not ment to do what normal people do

His a complexed person.
someone who's just really psycho
Normal average joe down the street
And i still dont quite grasp where I went wrong.
Well, until i realize im not going to be with him for a very long time

Its like getting used to having your pea's and carrots seperate
and now there is NO PEAS.
Just carrots.
Empty, delicate carrots.
I had not considered what it would be like to actually be AWAY FROM HIM
I should've k known what was coming
Since, in the first place, made all this mess
Im probably going though this phase cause a slap of reality made me wake up

I lost valuable, granted time
Time where I could see his visibility, and then maybe
JUST MAYBE.
by the slightest chance, actually want to be with him

Its astonishing how careless and blind someone is until that thing just slowly disappears from view










View not only where the eye can see, but also the heart