dilemma not worth thinking about

Seriously, UAN is in like 4 days and im like completely NOT IN the mood at all
Im sick and I was supposedly supposed to come in to school to do a praktek for TIK
IM SICK YO!!

school should start being smart on how they make their schedules
Im not showing up out of no where just because they told me too
Wheres their responsibility?
Don't mind me, im saying all of these because IM NOT IN SCHOOL AT THE MOMENT TO DO TIK

fmy life.


Karena UAN bentar lagi, mohon maaf dan doa buat semuanya

semoga tahun ini angkatan kelas 12 lulus UAN semua 100% :)

amiiin!

complications

Ive been so confused and having this huge dilemma on my future studies
I have been recently accepted into University of Gadjamada
And looking forward and anticipating my future test of acceptance in University of Indonesia
Its every kids dream to get to UI if you live anywhere in the ten mile radius of Indonesia
And its been hard to realize which one I really want and which one I really need
On one side I would like to make my family happy and proud and honored that their last and doubtful kid can get a uni in NY and I would like to be in NY for my future credit, But I would really like to be here and study law
But what am I to say what the future hold?

ALHAMDULLILAH

ALHAMDULLILAH ANDANTA I. DJAFAR

KETERIMA DAN LULUS UJIAN MASUK PBS HUKUM :)


THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT AND PRAYERS
HOPEFULLY THE INTERVIEW WILL GO AS PLANNED

AND LOTS AND LOTS OF THANKS AND LOVE FOR MY BOYFRIEND, ARDAN PERDANA :)

FOR EVERY SINGLE DROP OF LOVE YOU HAVE GIVEN ME


XOXXO

4 am

Its actually 43 past 4, but all is good
I dont know why im awake but I cant go back to sleep and that's for sure

How is everyone doing?
Which I think you will be reading this around afternoon-ish, am I right?

Exams have taking over my head.
And its getting to my weekends too!
The weirdest thing is that im not studying that hard for the exam
I MEAN IM GIVING MY ALL
but UAN is deff not my priority right now..



ME AND ANGIE BAIKAN LHOOOOOOO :D

complete happiness is filling me right now, hahahhahaha
Im back with the dumb-shit that makes me laugh all day!
pretty good to be back

Im not up for wild stuff right now, but all me angie do to relieve stress, is to just SHOP!
And I need to stop that right now -.-

Firefly

Karma.
UGH.
I hate this subject of hindu believes
But what goes around comes around
I feel really bad and guilty for the stupidity I have piled on someone
I just should've given my insecurities a break, And I pushed it
Im not regretting anything I did
Im just saying that instead of giving it my best effort to make it work I made it a deision that me and him are just not ment to do what normal people do

His a complexed person.
someone who's just really psycho
Normal average joe down the street
And i still dont quite grasp where I went wrong.
Well, until i realize im not going to be with him for a very long time

Its like getting used to having your pea's and carrots seperate
and now there is NO PEAS.
Just carrots.
Empty, delicate carrots.
I had not considered what it would be like to actually be AWAY FROM HIM
I should've k known what was coming
Since, in the first place, made all this mess
Im probably going though this phase cause a slap of reality made me wake up

I lost valuable, granted time
Time where I could see his visibility, and then maybe
JUST MAYBE.
by the slightest chance, actually want to be with him

Its astonishing how careless and blind someone is until that thing just slowly disappears from view










View not only where the eye can see, but also the heart

2010

HAPPY 2010 EVERYONE :D

Its been 22 min passed 1st jan of 2010
BUT I FEEL LIKE NOTHINGS CHANGED.
I had a different new year, thanks to my hubby RAMADITYA :)
I love him muucchoooo muuccchooo!
And we had a ball when we keliling2 and found now place to go, but back home
his home :)

It was alright, nothing special
Just a home thing, but I felt very special to be with him
I never thought of actually having my new years just being with someone
But its the feeling of one and hoping to go to another new years with him that makes me feel so much better

HAPPY 2010 EVERYONE
MAY GOD SHOWER US WITH ALL THE BLESSINGS AND WEALTH AND HAPPINESS
MAY 2010 BE THE YEAR WHERE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE REVOLUTIONIZE TO BE BETTER, STRONGER, WISER AND OLDER
AMIIIIIIIINNNNN :)

I hope where ever you guys are, you guys had a fantastic new year, and a welcoming of a new chapter
how did you guys spend it?

Well as i promise its already 2010 and I HAVE YET NOT WRITTEN my new years resolution
And all I can say I want right now is to be able to be:
BETTER
WISER
SMARTER
STRONGER
CALMER
LUCKY
CHARMING
UNSTOP-ABLE
INVINCIBLE
CUTER
CUNNING
WITTY
RATIONAL
LOVING
CARING
UNDERSTANDING

The list just keeps getting on and on
but most importantly I want to be able to DREAM HIGH, GAIN HIGHER, REACH HIGHER, BE HIGHER, BE THE HIGHEST, BE THE GOAL
Besides, I AM A DESTINY NOT A JOURNEY

2009 is a stepping stone and for me 2010 is my next step to the future
I hope that this year will bring me fortune that will reach infinity, give me love that's unconditional, shower me with all the best luck that god can give, and bloom me into a beautiful flower
Im leaving the old me of 2009 in exchanged for a new opportunity to create and groom a new one




I WILL MAKE IT. I WILL BE THERE. AND THAT WILL BE ME


SEE ME IN 2010 PEOPLE

KEEP TALKING, AND KEEP BACKSTABBING
I WONT BE HERE WITHOUT YOU GUYS :)

XOXXO <3

POTONG RAMBUT=BUANG SIAL :D

I cut my hair.. and this is me RIGHT NOW.

Its soooo short!

Anywho by the who, While I was cutting my hair
I came forth to decide that....






I will DONATE ALL MY HAIR ( when Im dead in the land of kill me forever ) to make wigs for girls who have cancer that have lost all their hair
The mesmerizing foundation: LOCKS OF LOVE

Which can be seen here on their website : http://www.locksoflove.org/

I knew of their website cause of oprah, and her revolutionary show
Locks of love are for people who need hair, and since were capable of giving. why not give them our hair as a sign of love?
We need to give back what we have
I hope one day I will be able to help someone smile even larger cause of the hair they got. And how much devotion, love and care I give to them even if I have not gotten a chance tp know them
Let me be one with them.